Choices

I have made a bazillion choices throughout my life.

Some good, some not so good.

This morning I made the choice to eat bread and jam. That was good.

Yesterday I made the choice to read all day instead of clean. That was not good.

13 years ago I made the choice to be married and to one day welcome children into my awaiting womb.

And welcome them I did.

I threw up, a lot. I ached, a lot. I cried, a lot. My body is not the same.

But I am thrilled with my choice. Everyday there is something to find joy in.

But besides carrying them, baring them, and giving them the basic needs essential for life, I feel that I signed up for much, much more.

I made the choice to teach my children about their Savior Jesus Christ. Not just in word, but in deed, action, example.

Sometimes I feel like we're succeeding, sometimes I'm pretty sure the only way my children are listening is if they hear the words treat, or candy.

But I take what I do very seriously. As nice as it would be if it were otherwise, I am hugely responsible for how they turn out. Every choice I make in not only mothering them but in my own life will affect them. It will.

Which is both good and bad obviously. For one thing it means I cannot devour chocolate cake for breakfast without letting them do it too.

But I will gladly continue with this mantle of responsibility. I will revel in the moments where my oldest tells us about her knowledge that Jesus Christ lives and that she knows He died for her.

I will cry with joy when my second child doesn't give up and is rewarded for her efforts.

I will laugh when my first son dances with glee to Barbie music.

I will be grateful for my 4th child who reminds me where she gets her sassiness. (me, in case you didn't know)

I will feel absolutely gleeful watching my second son do his kung fu moves.

And I will be reminded once again of the joy of motherhood as I hold my 9 month old baby in my arms, as she plays with my mouth, sucks her own fingers, or nuzzles in for some mother's milk.

I have made choices, and fortunately for me, I get to live with them.

Doctor says so

Mr. Man is tired. He is always tired it seems. But now I know that there is a reason.

Today I took Henry to a special Doctor that could help decipher the oh-so sadness of his cheeks.

They are always red and raw and look awfully itchy. Combine that with overly stinky poo and a constant runny nose and I was highly suspicious that this little Man had something going on.

I relayed my fears and overall assumptions and misgivings about his health to the Doctor.

She checked him out, looked at his cheeks, looked at the halo around his head where hair doesn't really grow (she had NO IDEA what that was about), then she had him say "Ah" and she exclaimed "Those are some BIG tonsils, does he snore?"

Why yes he does. But not your regular sawing logs type snoring, more of a "snort, snort, no breathing, snort, snort".

Little Man has sleep apnea.

So out come the tonsils, out come the adnoids. And while he is dreaming Astronaut dreams based on the Astronaut gas they will give him, they will also draw his blood to check for allergies. Condense all the uncomfortableness into one event, you see.

Perhaps when this is all done we will have answers about the state of his cheeks, bum and facial.

But Doctor said this should help him sleep better at night so that he won't be falling asleep on the couch every afternoon.

We shall see.

So now important questions like, what kind of ice cream will he want and will there be room enough in his bed for us to recover together, him physically, me emotionally?

More decore

What do you do when every wall in your house starts out this color?



You start painting, that's what. And pretty soon you go wild with the colors and you decide that dinner mint green must adorn the walls of at least one child's room.






Brown is down.

Mint green is on the scene.

It's more than sand in your shorts

Our family loves the beach. I mean, really, we LOVE the beach.

We go in the winter, we go in the summer, spring and fall.

If there is a beach in reasonable driving distance, we are there.

So when this past week we had some pretty nice weather, I packed the kids up and headed to what would be considered a beach in Washington state.

It was Nora's first experience with sand.

At first we kept her in the front pack.



I didn't want her to get dirty. Silly as a mom of 6, I know. But I like her all sweet smelling and baby fresh. Can you blame me?

Pretty soon though, her incessant crying and staring at the sandy beach caused me to set the poor child free.


But I knew that soon, just running her fingers through the sand would not suffice. That eventually her overwhelming desire to TASTE the sand (as well as any random stick or piece of garbage) would win out.



Can you hear her little mind going?
"Ahhhhh, yummy."



And just cuz I know you want to know, were you aware that if you allow your baby to eat sand, that the sand will not digest, but come out exactly as it went in?

Just something to think about.

Of course, everyone else enjoyed the day as well. Albeit, WITHOUT having to eat any sand.




And just so you know, I did not save this picture of Henry for last even though he is the cutest 2 year old ever to walk the planet, this is the just the order they uploaded in.
He is not my favorite.
You can't prove it.
I refuse to acknowledge such a thought on the basis that my obvious soft spot for my children as two year old's would cause other's to assume that the child who is currently two is my favorite child.
Which Henry is not.
Like I said, you can't prove anything.

Just enjoy the picture of my not favorite child.
(Isn't he soooo cute?)

THE END

P.S.

Tomorrow I will unveil Henry and Nora's newly painted and decorated bedroom.

Can't wait? Me neither.

Seriously, the end.

Henry-isms

Henry is a smart, talented little guy.

He can do many things well and he is entertaining on a number of levels.

Some things however, are taking a little longer.

His speech for instance is straggling behind.

We have worked very hard to interpret what he is saying.

Here are a few things we have figured out.

Hoo hoo: horse

Dat hi-ya: sword

Lao: water

Be-bo: blanket

Did any of your kids have particularly strange words for things? Please tell me my son is not the only one.

Coye Lee Kraai
January 8, 1922-April 12, 2009




Yesterday was a beautiful day.

It was Easter Sunday. A day to celebrate and teach our children about the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.

It was also the day that Jeff's grandmother, Coye Lee Kraai, went home to her Heavenly Father.

She was a great woman. Now I know that people always say that about someone who has passed away. But it is really true. She was honest, she was forthright, she was faithful. She was good to all of us, supportive and loving, proud of who we are.

Lee was the first person in Jeff's family to become a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints some 55 years ago.

She was the pioneer in his family. She raised two daughters in the gospel, they were both sealed in the Temple to their spouses and between them they made Lee a grandmother of 7, and a great grandmother of 17. Four of those grandchildren served missions for our church and because of that service, countless others have learned about the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Her life showed that one person can make a tremendous difference in the lives of countless others. That one decision can have a positive impact on a person's posterity.

The last 10 plus years, Lee endured many physical trials. Her mind was sharp, but her body had done all it could in this life.

So while we are sad for ourselves, we are so happy for her. She has gone on to be with her Savior, to be with her husband who passed 13 years before her.

It's strange to think she that she really has gone. I guess we all just thought she would go on living forever. And I guess, really, she has. She has only passed from this mortal existence but she still lives on.

And I'm grateful to have known her. I'm grateful for the choice she made that brought the Gospel to her family, which in turn brought Jeff to me. Her legacy lives on through my children. We hope to make her proud, to have her be one of those waiting with open arms for us when it is our turn. We love you G.G.

No can find and that's ok

I have some great pictures ready to go of our little venture to the beach this week.

The kids are on spring break and so we have been trying to do fun and wonderful things.

Alas, though, someone short has absconded with the little do-hicky that lets my camera hook to the computer and download loverly photos of sun, sand, and beautiful children enjoying the water.

So, for now, I will continue to take pictures, think of highly clever things to blog about, but for the most part just enjoy my children for the last few days of their spring break.

Have a great week.

Until Monday.

Jeff's Surprise

So I was unable to take any before pictures of the office, simply because Jeff had the camera with him in Utah. But I did find a random picture that at least gives you a little hint at the starkness and all together blah-ness of the office.

But to paint more of a mental picture for you, the office was mostly a dumping ground for things that had no other home. Extra desk, extra bookshelves. It also became a place where no one, myself included, really made an effort to keep it organized. It was too full of non-essential office stuff.

There were no pictures on the Diverse Beige walls, no true organization, no spark to the room.

And being that every other room in the house is more or less mine, I decided that my Jeffy, my husband and best friend, he who brings home the bacon, he who does so much for us, deserved his own room.

And for my husband, nothing could be better than a room inspired by the other great love of his life, classic cars.

When we lived in Rhode Island, Jeff owned a 1957 Plymouth Savoy. Color was silver with blue flames. It. was. AWESOME.

Alas, we had to sell Buddy, our fashion car (that's what the kids called it) so that we could have money to move across the country to go back to school.

But the memories are fond. So with blown up pictures of Buddy, bumpers and one tail light from a 1957 Plymouth, I set out to create something astounding.

And with the help of my brother Keno and his lovely wife Amy, the room was transformed.

Hanging of bumpers courtesy of Keno Granger

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Flames courtesy of Amy Granger. Mad Craigslist skills that found that tail light, courtesy of Don Allen.
Our old desk painted silver
A map of Brazil and a cross stitch of Jeff's mission (courtesy of Bonnie Granger)

And I still have a little corner to myself for any future scrapbooking efforts.

It's really even better in person. But my camera is pretty low tech.

Anyway, this effort involved a lot of late nights, but the look on Jeff's face when he got home was worth every bit of it. Shock, awe, thrilled, ecstatic, all describe his reaction.

I love you Jeff.

surprise

I am working on a surprise for Jeff.

Jeff and Julia are in Utah right now and will be back on Saturday. Which I guess is technically tomorrow since I'm up so late.

So this is all the post you get because I have a ton to do. But I will post pictures of the surprise next week.

Until then, please try and give this photo a name.


The most creative, make me laugh or good cry will win my utmost respect.
I'm short on big budget for a giveaway, but big on love.

Later

Enough already

This has to stop.


Really.

I'm putting a stop to it.

I'm getting close to almost telling Anne Marie that she may indeed have to possibly stop dressing Henry in girl's clothes.

Except that he's so cute in them.

And doesn't he look happy?

Wait...stop it, it's not right.

But oh how the pink brings out his lovely complexion and the hues in his reddish blonde hair.

Enough already!

He's a boy, not a doll.

Hey, he's a boy doll.

That's it, that's why she does it.

Anne Marie has her own personal living, breathing boy doll.

Poor kid.

But this...


This does not have to stop.

Chocolate cake on the face of my little dolly only makes her more delicious.

Yum yum.

Enlightenment

I have been reading a fantabulous book called Seeing with an Eye of Faith by Grant Von Harrison, a follow up to Drawing on the Powers of Heaven. (Thanks to my husband who has such a good variety of faith promoting books in his personal collection)

In this book he discusses how you can know your true self by examining the thoughts you think and how you spend your free time, (I'm thinking I'm in big trouble with this one) to name a few.

He states that we will be judged as much by our conversations as by our conduct.
That humour filled with sarcasm and sexual innuendo has no place among those who desire to be closer to God.

So my goals are going to be:

Erase sarcasm (or humour at another's expense,take your pick)as a form of humour.
Keep both my thoughts and my conversations in a state where I would be
comfortable with the Savior there.

I want my true self to be someone I'm proud of, not someone I hide from the world.

Just something to think about.

I'm sorry, but this is officially the cutest baby ever.

Don't believe me? Look again.



Still not convinced?



I rest my case.

Swimsuit giveaway

The Meanest Mom is having an awesome giveaway. You should check it out here. Really.

It's for a new swimsuit.

Unfortunately for me, the swimsuit giveaway is not accompanied by a body makeover as well. *sigh*

Why I love Kindergarten

Anne Marie and I went on a field trip today.

It was fun to spend the whole day with my child.

I loved watching the way the kindergartener's interact with eachother. You can already see the way they will eventually separate when they are in junior high.
That part was sad, but very real and interesting.

But I was reminded of why kindergarten is such a magical world.
If you look at the girl in the background of the picture, she is someone we met on the bus today, for the first time.

Anne Marie and this girl talked back and forth, played and had a great time.

Anne Marie enjoyed herself and said to this girl "Hey, do you want to be friends?"

The other little smiled and nodded happily and they kept on having fun.

There was no sizing eachother up, no feeling jealous or mean to eachother, just "Hey, do you want to be friends?"

Sometimes I wish I was still in kindergarten.

Sometimes I act like I'm still in kindergarten.

Only without snack time or recess.
Or short toilets.

Kindergarten rocks, wouldn't you agree?

Speaking of...

I am possessed occasionally with small amounts of brilliance when it comes to my blog.

VERY occasionally

Yesterday, for instance, was not one of those times.

Sorry.

However, you would expect total adoration, acceptance, standing ovation type stuff from your one and only, right?

Instead my conversation with Jeff concerning my post yesterday went like this.

Jeff-"Your blog today was funny."
Me-"What do you mean funny?"
Jeff-"You know, weird"

Thank you.
And speaking of weird.





So there.

Dreaming

Lately I have had very strange dreams.

Dreams that make me question my sanity as well as a number of other things.

But really, I don't think they mean anything.

One dream for instance, I had a very 80's short feathered do that hasn't made an appearance in my life since 1986.

That wasn't the most disturbing aspect of the dream, but it was bad enough.

Another part of that dream had Jeff looking exactly how he did when I met him.
-Elvis hair
-Round glasses
-Colored jeans with shirt tucked in
-Glowing with youth and optimism

And no, I do not wish for him to wear colored jeans again, but it was nice to see him that way anyway.

My point in all this is nothing really.

Sometimes I think dreams mean things, other times they are just our brains way of destressing. Nonsensical brain jibberish that helps us relax.

And sometimes they are a way of looking back (Elvis hair and colored jeans) and looking forward (dreams about future children and retirement).

Sometimes they are just plain weird-like the recurring dream I have where I am pulling wads and wads of gum out of my mouth-never ending wads of gum.

I love the glorious dreams where I can fly, or I'm singing on stage, or I'm running really fast.

The way our brains work amazes me, so complex, so mysterious.

Just one other way that our bodies are a perfect example of the Masterful genious of He who created them.

And even better than dreaming at night? Day dreams, the ones we control. The wandering of our brain into scenarios of happiness, for the most part. I could day dream all day long. In fact I do sometimes. (Those are the days Jeff,when you get home from work and I have done nothing :)

Right now I'm daydreaming about waffles and homemade syrup.

I do love the dreams that become reality. I do I do.

My Boy

Charlie is my first boy.

He opened up a whole new world that as a mom with 2 girls, I had never known before.

I remember my friend Teresa telling me how in love she was with her boys, and until I had a son of my own I didn't quite understand the feeling of wanting to make out with my newborn. (You all know what I mean)

Then Charlie came along and all I could do was stare into his eyes and decide then and there that no girl would ever be good enough for him.

Well today, this little stealer of my heart is 7 years old.

A year away from being baptized, a year away from cub scouts, a year closer to eventually leaving me to go on a mission, then college, then to marry some girl who I'd better like almost more than I like him!!

Ahem.

Today Charlie enters a world where he doesn't need help to clean anymore.

A world where he is growing more and more dependable, honest and mindful of his Savior and the gospel in his life.

A world where he is so loving and kind to his little sisters that it almost makes me cry.

My son, who was once described by my friend as more beautiful then most girls, with his long lashes, sandy hair and wicked dance moves, is 7 years old.

Seven years ago I sat and marveled at this little life that Heavenly Father had entrusted us with and hoped that I would be up to the task of raising a son.
A son who would one day be a husband and father, who would lead his home in righteousness and love, who would provide for his family and preside over his home.

Could I do it? Could I teach him all he needed to know so that he would grow to be as strong and faithful and valiant as his own father?

Would I be able to share with him the love of his Savior and Heavenly Father as well as the love of his parents?

Charlie is ever surprising me, and not in the ways I would have thought when he was 3.

He is strong, and caring and is learning to not follow the crowd. To set an example for others without losing the spice in his personality.

I watch him and know that he will surpass me in intelligence, wisdom, faith and love, and I am grateful. Grateful for my son.

And while I have lost the urge to make out with him (he is waay too slobbery now), I love him more now then ever and will only grow more attached everyday.

Happy Birthday my boy, I love you!

Mom

You saw casual wear.

This is active wear.

There has been evening wear, but I couldn't find my camera.

All I can say is: "Houston, we may have a problem"

How will I tell him someday that they don't make pink and purple leotards in his size?

Cannibalism

I adore my children. They are like ooey, gooey, carmel filled treats.

I'm pretty sure that they are the tastiest things on the planet.

Of course the most scrum-diddly-umptious of them all is Nora. We all think so.

There is not a finger or toe or ear or cheek or section of leg or tummy that has not been nibbled, kissed, squished, squeezed and hugged on that little girl.

I crave the top of her head.

I love her sqooshy little dimpled bum.

Her fuzzy almost non-existent hair needs constant patting.

Her fingers spend equal time in her mouth and mine.

I feel incomplete if her cheek is not pressed up against mine at all times.

If it wouldn't break, I would be in her crib cuddled up next to her right now.

All of my kids have endured this from me. They all still would if I could get away with it. But I have learned to fight my cravings to slobber all over my kids with hugs and kisses. Simply because they like it for only about 2 seconds now.

Too bad for me.

But a shift has occured.

I am no longer the only one who craves nibbling on another family member.

Yet, whereas my nibbling was gentle, albeit a little slobbery, this little carnivore digs right in.

Nora has decided that the other humans that inhabit her domicile are in fact a food source now.

It started with her taking bites out of me during her regular feedings.

It progressed to biting the unsuspecting arm of anyone who was holding her.

No amount of startled yells, or stern "No!"s seemed to stem the tide of uncontrollable biting.

We were very concerned at Nora's urge to eat her family. What could be happening?

Well, we finally discovered what was sending her into fits of biting frenzy.

It's a little hard to see buried under that protruding tongue.

Welcome tooth number 3!




We are glad you are finally here.

Burn, Baby, Burn

If you know anything about me, I tend to take a while to learn some of life's lessons.

Or I repeat things hoping for a different outcome. (Isn't that the definition of insanity?)

When I was 17 I went tanning for the first time. Ouch.

It was a painful, itchy, trip to the ER experience.

I decided to stay away from tanning beds.

As I got older I tried tanning again with more success.
I started slowly, built up my tan and didn't burn in a tanning bed again.

As I started to get older older, like in my 30's, I began to worry about skin cancer, aging, what have you.

But living in Rhode Island in the winter time, I realized I needed some sort of sun, artificial would have to do.

Then we moved to Utah where it is sunny all year long, so I no longer needed to tan.

Then when we moved to Washington, I got pregnant right at the beginning of winter so I dealt with the winter blues as afffectively as I could.

I cried a lot.

So as this winter seemed to drag on and on, I thought, I should go tanning again, get some rays to help lift my mood.

Most bad endings start with good intentions.

I seemed to forget that it has been 4 years since I stepped foot in a tanning place and that I was beyond pasty white from living in overcast, rainy, doesn't get over 80even in the summer Seattle.


So to lift my spirits, I went, got my little tour, blah blah blah, "do you burn easy?" "You don't? ok, go in this one for this long, blah blah blah"

Remember, the last time I went was 4 years ago. They were just starting to get fancy. So when she said 8 minutes I thought, that should be fine.

Well, it wasn't.

(Sorry about the angle, did you know it's really hard to take a picture of your own back?)

So now I hurt, but worse then that, I itch.

I itch to the point where I seriously sat poised, ready to stab myself in the leg with one of Jeff's epi pens.

But I'm too big of a chicken. And I'm glad I didn't, cuz after I stabbed the chair cuz I was curious what would happen, I saw how big the needle is.

Poor chair.

It really shouldn't have to take such abuse.

So now instead, I'm doped up on 2 Benadryl and a lot of itch cream. Which is just as hard to put on your back by yourself as it is to take a picture of your own back.

So please, I am uncomfortable enough, no comments on how stupid tanning is or what was I thinking.

Cuz I wasn't thinking. Obviously.

And now I'm off to sleep. And hopefully not itch.
Thank you very much.

Blog friends

I am one happy camper.

I have been blessed during all of our moving around to make many great friends.
I don't feel it has ever been an issue.

Heavenly Father in all of his love and kindness has provided me with a pretty good ability to make friends.

And I love my friends, all of them.

Well, now I am making friends in other states without having to move there.

They are my blog friends.

If you are unfamiliar with this term, it generally means you have somehow stumbled across someone's blog, or they have come across yours. You start leaving comments for eachother because you feel a certain connection after viewing their blog.

Pretty soon, you say, "oh yay, Marci left a comment", or I wonder what Nita is up to.

It's a whole new world of friendship for me, and I'm enjoying it.

There are some down sides to it, of course.

The biggest being that you find yourself concerned for their welfare, crying at their sorrows, finding joy in their joy-and yet you can't physically give them a hug or bake them cookies.

But I am thankful for all of my friends, those I have met and those I have not.

And once I can figure out how to send cookies across the country, there will be one less downside to the wonderful world of Blog Friends.

Charlie at 3 years old.



That's a cute little guy you say.


Yes, he was cute. And funny. And precious. And adorable.

He still is.

Why am I showing you this? Because Charlie is the key figure in a story that I may have told many of you, or all of you, cuz I forget what I tell to who.
Possibly because I talk too much and think people are way more interested in what I have to say than they really are.

Admittedly I'm a tad narcissistic, why else would I have a blog?

What was I talking about?

Oh yes, my story, which you have probably already heard.

When I was 6 months pregnant with Anne Marie,oh, about 6 years ago now, we were still living in Rhode Island.

Plane trips home to Washington only happened about once a year because they were
A. Expensive and
B. Not fun

However, around the 2nd trimester of my 4th pregnancy, I decided it was time to go home. cuz I'm crazy like that.

Actually, it's because my mom and sister had come out to Rhode Island to visit and then me and the kids flew back with them to Washington. So I figured I only had to go it alone one direction.

At the time of travel, Charlie was 15 months old. A time of fun and cuteness and bliss with most toddlers.

The same was true with Charlie...as long as you didn't try and tell him he had to sit in one place for more than 30 seconds.

But with Grandma and aunt Maile to help, and a healthy dose of Benadryl, the trip from RI to WA was pretty ok.

While in Washington for our 3 week visit (you have to get the most out of 1200 dollars spent on plane tickets), Charlie learned that he could scream.

And I don't mean scream cuz your foot just got rolled over by a tractor or you saw a scorpion in your bed. That would be acceptable.

I mean scream for no apparent reason simply because you can.
I mean scream like a seagull being sat upon.
I mean scream like the teapot someone left on the stove.
I mean scream like you have a death wish because someone will surely throttle you if you don't shut up!

Yes, Charlie had found his voice, right before I travelled back to RI with 3 children under 6 and being large with child.

And in case you were wondering, it is 7 hours in the air plus switching planes at some gigantic HUB in Cincinnati, or Chicago. Somewhere BIG.

Knowing I was about to embark on such a journey, I purchased a massive bag of Dum Dums. I figured I could keep his mouth busy with lollipops enough that he wouldn't scream. HA!

As we settled into our seats, and I strapped Charlie into his FAA approved carseat, he quickly realized that he was unable to move.

In a car that's fine cuz you can see out the windows, not so much in an airplane.

He began to cry, and then to whine, and then to wail at the top of his lungs, until finally the only sound coming out was his now signature high pitch scream.

What's a mother to do?

So as fast as you can say sugar rush I began cramming lollipop after lollipop in his hands. Pretty soon, he would cry just seeing the lollipop coming.

I then attempted to stroke his head, tell him it was ok, to which he would respond by smacking me and crying more.

As desperation settled in on me, I knew that I could at least change it up a bit. If I could get him to cry instead of scream, at least our ears could stop bleeding for a few blissful moments.

So I pinched him.

I know, I know, gasp, shock, how could you, etc.

Desperate times my friends.

After all the huffing and sighs from those around me, the evil glares from the people across the aisle and the stewardess telling me my child was disturbing others and could I please try to calm him down, I lost all grip on good parenting.

At one point I even attempted to stand up with Charlie just to change the scenery. But at 15 months old he was already 32 pounds, and I was 6 months pregnant, that didn't last long.
So, in a last ditch effort,I pinched my child, he cried for 30 seconds, and then began to scream again.

But what a blissful 30 seconds it was.

In fact, it relaxed me enough that at one point I even fell asleep with him screaming. I liken it to falling asleep between contractions while your in labor, your body just gives up for a few minutes from the fatigue.

Now of course there are always the really nice people on the plane, and the really nasty people.

This wonderful couple in front of me had their own perfect little child who didn't make a peep, yet they were full of encouraging smiles and nice words to me.

The nastiness came from the blonde girl behind me on the second leg of the trip.

She huffed and sighed and turned the volume up on her headphones.

But the kicker came as we were getting off the plane.

A rather decent gentlemen remarked "Poor kid, I bet he's glad to get off the plane"
See, there are nice people out there.

Blondie however, decided to voice how she really felt, loud enough for me to hear.

"Yeah, well, he like screamed like, the whole way, I totally thought it would like, never stop, blah blah blah"
(I added valley girl speak for emphasis on how annoying she was)
Now of course a person's gut reaction is to retaliate. To say something like "Hey, you little skank, would you have rather been you or me during this trip?" Or, "didn't your mother ever tell you that if you can't say something nice than to shut your trap?!!"

You know, things like that.

However, something about her made me hold my tongue and just smile.

What could it be you ask? What could have kept my sharp rebuke from exploding out of me while slapping her silly?

Well, you see, she was 7 months pregnant.

With her first child.

And my restraint was not due to her "fragile" condition or even respect for another pregnant woman.

No. I realized in a split second that one day this woman's child would be throwing his or her first fit.

The kind of fit where you hope the ground swallows you up because you are so mortified. Mortified that all the parenting books you read and bad examples you carefully remembered to avoid and all of your own self assurances of "my child will NEVER do that" have failed you and now your 3 year old is writhing on the ground and screaming because they wanted pink instead of blue, or no nuts instead of nuts.

At that moment, she will remember me on the plane, pregnant, my 2 sweet girls and one screaming little boy, my kind knowing smile,and wish that she could go back and be nicer to me.

Compared with that, there was nothing I could have said that would have been a stronger teacher or slap in the face.

So here's to blonde girl and all others like her.

May you have your own children to scream, barf, throw tantrums and pee their pants in public.

To which I will say "Welcome to the club."

(And by the way, this is my 100th post. Yay!)

Some things never change

This is the Kate and Julia standing in front of Julia's bed 4 years ago.

These same two girls are now 9 and 11.
Kate will be in middle school next year.
I bought Kate her first pair of heels (low heels)for her last week.

What is happening?

Kate can fit into most of MY "skinny" dresses and shirts.

Julia's hair is long and lovely.
She can make pancakes, spaghetti and mac and cheese (just to name a few)all by herself.

Their favorite colors are not pink and purple anymore.

They've both been in plays, sang in choir and are learning to knit.

Many things have changed.

But one thing has not.

They're still this good of friends.

*Please note*
This is not our house. It is the house I would aspire to have. We snapped a picture of this beauty on our way to Oregon last year.


Can you see her?

Can you see the little old woman in the rocking chair?

There, on the porch.

She has about a jillion grandchildren around her and they're listening to her read a story.

You can't see them?

hm

Well, can you see the little old man staring at her adoringly?

See, he's standing in the doorway.

You should be able to see his grey, bushy eyebrows from a mile away.

You can't see him either?

Well, maybe my picture is off kilter, or out of focus, or, wait..

I see the problem.

This picture doesn't include the vision I have of my future with Jeff.

It only shows that house as it is now.

Sorry, so embarassing.

It seems so real to me, that I forgot you all can't possibly see it yet.

See, there's me and Jeff, our 6 kids and their kids, and possibly even their children's children.

There's homemade icecream on a hot summer day.

There's a hammock swinging back and forth precariously as numerous children attempt to pile onto it.

There's the gentle "creak" of the porch swing.

There's my head resting on Jeff's shoulder and the happy sigh as we look over what our love has brought us.

There's is the sound of the wind in the trees, the soft whisper of turning pages of a good book.

There's a baby crying somewhere and the sweet voice of one of my daughters comforting her child.

There is joy, and hope, and love and sweetness.

There is the wrinkled skin of my hand, innertwined with Jeff's.

He kisses my forhead as the sun goes down.

The sounds of children slow down as everyone piles into their cars to head home.

"Where are your shoes? Can you go find them please? Will you get her pajamas on her so she can fall asleep on the car ride home?"

"I love you Mom, I love you Dad, this was a great day."

"Do we have everyone? Ok, let's go"

We sit for a few more minutes, waving to them all as they drive away.

I stare into Jeff's eyes for a moment, remembering in an instant all the years we have spent together.

As the stars come out and the breeze slows to a timid whisper, I know it is time to go in.

Jeff starts heading into the house holding the door for me,"Are you coming?" he asks.

"Yes" I say, "I'll be right there, I just need a minute."

So he waits there for me.

And I sit.

I sit and remember every laugh and squeal and happy sigh of the day. I memorize it, capture it, and hold it tight.

When my heart is filled to the breaking point, oozing with the peace that comes at the end of something special, when I can look around and know all is as it should be, then, then I say, "Alright, I'm ready."

And hand in hand we head back into the house, just the two of us once again.

I love you guys.

I love that you laugh so easily.

I love you that you still feel the tender love of a parent for me.

I love that Mom is retired so that you can be together.

I love that you raised me with the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

I love that you feel real joy for the happiness of your children and grandchildren.

I love that you taught me to work hard.

I love your jokes Dad, and I love that Mom laughs at all of them.

I love that I live closer to you now.

I love that my memories of you both are happy.

I love you both.

Thank you for loving me back.

The only words I have are: This is what happens to a boy with an older sister.

Pictures from my phone that just may make Peter and Teresa drool

Dick's is a Northwest institution.


They have the BEST hamburgers, handcut french fries, best ice cream.

They only serve hamburgers and cheeseburgers.

Their burgers only come one way, if you don't like what's on it, you'll just have to scrape it off.

They only take cash.

There is only one Dick's (I think) that has dine in, and that's the one we ate at near Queen Anne

This was the first time eating there for the kids that were with us.



Anne Marie loved the hamburgers. She wants ketchup on everything now.

Even Nora loved it.

(yes I know I'm feeding my baby a french fry, get over it)

Wait,I'm sorry I just told you to get over it.

What I meant was, don't worry about what I'm feeding my baby, please.

I promise she'll grow up to be healthy and happy.

All better? Great.

I ordered the special.


It was special because it had lettuce and relish on it. Yum!!

(And no that is not a weird camera angle, I really do have man hands)


I honestly took these pictures for our friends in Utah who are from the greater Seattle area.

They love Dick's as well, and I wish they could have sat down for a good burger and fries with us.
Jeff got us all scoops of ice cream afterwards.


That's one of the many reasons I adore him. He gets me ice cream.

I had rocky road

I wish I had some rocky road right now.

Don't you?

I am Alive

*WARNING*
There are no pictures, I repeat, there are no pictures!

My camera battery needs to be recharged and I've been too drained myself to take any pictures.

Now...

Thank you for caring about me.

Seriously.

But I'm fine.

No, really, I am.

Let me give you a run down on the past 5 days and then all will be made clear.

Let's see.

Friday morning:Cleaned my house so that it could be ready-ish to go get Maile's 4 kids who were coming for the night. (didn't get much done)
Friday afternoon:Picked up my kids from school,early release, and drove to Gig Harbor where my children and I participated in a service project for Maile who was really sick with what turned out to be bronchitis, but only inches away from pneumonia.

Friday night:Drove back to Maple Valley with all 10 kids, ate Pizza for dinner, acted silly, had fun, fell asleep in 2 seconds.

Saturday morning:Got up made waffles for 10 children, got 10 kids ready and went with 10 kids to Charlie's basketball game.

Saturday mid-morning to early afternoon:Watched Charlie play basketball, dropped Jeff and 9 kids off at park while NOra and I made a run to Costco to get supplies and lunch then headed back to park where we all ate lunch, played some more and then left.

On the way home from park called Maile and convinced her that I should get to keep her adorable children for one more night. She said yes, I said hurray!

Picked up some movies, headed back to our house.

Saturday afternoon to early evening:Kids played outside, watched movies, ate dinner, ate cookies, ate paper. Wait, that was just Nora.

Saturday evening was spent putting kids to bed, consoling one child who became uncertain around 9:00 if he really wanted to spend the night again.

It worked out just fine.

Saturday night around 11-passed out cold from exhaustion.

Sunday morning: Made more waffles (if you're wondering why so many waffles, my wonderful friend Trisha gave me a recipe for homemade syrup that is so to-die-for that we pretty much come up with any excuse to pour it on stuff)

Jeff and Kate go to church because the rest of us were too tired and really, trying to get 12 of us out they door by 9:30 pretty much was not going to happen.

Kate and Jeff get home around 12:15, we pack everyone up-which took 2 hours, left for Gig Harbor to begrudgingly return them to their parents.

Spent evening in Gig Harbor, drove home around 9, everyone falls into beds utterly exhausted.

Monday morning we all slept thru alarms, snoozes, baby's crying, everything. Eventually my kids made it to school by 10. I then picked up my other adorable niece Sadie and she came and played for the afternoon-super fun because she likes me now and doesn't look at me weird anymore when I tell her I love her.

Monday afternoon:I finally got around to cleaning up post 10 children running around, eating, playing, shredding paper, dominoes everywhere, shoes everywhere, dishes everywhere, etc. etc.

Monday night Jeff and Keno and two of our neighbors went and picked up a piano from my lovely aunt who so generously donated it to the cause of musical education for my children, whilst I stayed home and cleared a spot for the placement of future angelic musical instrument.

Tuesday morning: Had to be ready when my kids left for school so that Anne Marie, Henry, Nora and I could get to Seattle by 10 for Nora's appt. with the TEDDY study.(She has the markers for juvenile diabetes, no biggie yet, we're just keeping an eye on it thru the study while helping them to try and discover what causes juvenile diabetes.)

Tuesday afternoon:Met Jeff for lunch, then rushed back to get Anne Marie to school, then spent the rest of the afternoon, with my lovely neighbors, preparing phone directories for all the women at church, then went to a dinner/church function for the women at church, arrived home at 10:30.

Wednesday morning:had to leave by 9:30 to get Henry and Nora to their doctor's appts. for Nora's immunizations and Henry's rash on his face.

Arrived home half an hour ago to a few phone calls expressing love and worry for my silence on the Bloggernet.

Phew.

Bored yet? Me too.

I have some good posts I'm saving up, but as you can see, the past 5 days have really left me no alternative but to neglect my blog. So I am sorry, truly.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go make bread so that my children can have sandwiches tomorrow in their lunches (sorry about today Charlie, think of it as snacks for lunch:)and take a shower so that I'm ready for Kate and Julia's All District choir concert tonight at 7.

Oh, and clean up the puddle of spit up that just erupted out of Nora.

I'm outtie.

Another snow day

It snowed again today.

Where do I live?

Seriously.

This is the pacific northwest, it's supposed to rain all winter, not snow.

My kids are going to be in school til July.

This is totally messing with our summer.

Don't get me wrong, I like it better when they are home. But, when it starts cutting into summertime, me and winter are going to have a knock out, drag down, gloves off fight.

Basically I'm just glaring out the window. But winter knows I'm mad, I'll tell you what!

"Don't mess with my vicious glare,Mr. Winter!You'll be sorry!"

So, I'm off to sit in my pajamas all day and watch movies, and bake cookies, and eat waffles for breakfast cuz we actually have time today, and nap, and read stories and giggle and play.

Hm.

Nevermind Mr. Winter, you just do what you gotta do.

We'll be just fine.

One of those cereal for dinner days

My day yesterday.

Was like this:
And this:

You only had to listen for 10 seconds, I got to listen to that, for like, 20 minutes.

At least.

Maybe longer.

What's that you say?

I'm sorry, I can't hear you, I have been rendered deaf by the ear splitting noise that Henry made most of the afternoon.

And I can't see you because of the gray haze and drizzle currently blocking the light.

Yeah, it was one of those days.

And yes, we had cereal for dinner.

Don't judge me.

Please.

I can't be held responsible for the quality of the food around here on days like this.

I just can't.

Thank you.